Dear 2025, we tired - sincerely the universe

Often throughout the year, I found myself blank-staring into the invisible camera to the left of me, like I was stuck in an episode of "The Office." Except Dwight wasn’t my right-hand man, my sidekick was something far uglier... audacity.

Everything, everyone, every insect, every animal, even Mother Nature herself, had nothing but pure, unfiltered audacity all damn year and the year isn’t even over. If you believe in signs, then retrograde either worked in your favor or absolutely kicked your ass. For me, this retrograde has been nothing but gracious… or I’ve already died and am living in hell. Jury’s still out.

Maybe I should credit my current calmness to shadow work, therapy, my intense love affair with the gym and a diet that finally supports my mental clarity. Because while the world around me seems to be crashing and burning, I’m somehow standing in the flames completely unbothered. Fireproof. Flame-retardant. Blessed and highly heat-resistant.

I’ve handled this year with the attitude of “it will all work out.” Getting here wasn’t easy—ya girl tends to be dramatic. And that word used to hurt me. I’m expressive, I’m colorful and I can tell a story. I have the memory of an elephant and the emotional range of a telenovela star. So when someone called me dramatic—especially after I finally let them in (because that’s the only way you’d ever see that side of me)—I would shut down.

Now? If someone calls me dramatic, that’s my sign that they are not a safe place. And they will be promptly removed from my life. No forwarding address. No return policy.

Anyway! My drama, honey, used to send me into full-blown panic spirals over elaborate scenarios I made up in my head (hello delusion—I am a Pisces, after all). But after doing real work on myself, I realized something: I am always okay. So this time, instead of panicking, I’m choosing to believe that I will be okay again.

When in doubt, I repeat something my cousin once told me: “God, help me with my unbelief.” I’m not religious, but I do believe in God and the power of the universe. And when my mindset shifted, so did my attitude and suddenly my anxiety was nonexistent. Like it packed up, left, and didn’t even bother to text back.

As much as I want to hate 2025, I don’t. It was a year of growth, chaos, clarity, and opportunity. I’m proud of how I handled it and honestly, I can’t wait to see how it ends.